Unworthy!

After reading and pondering on God’s magnificent word this day,

I closed my eyes, and these thoughts entered my mind and spirit which I recorded below.

O’ God, O’ God, O’ God,

 how unworthy

 and

tarnished I am

without the cross of

 Your Son

burnishing against my nature

and

setting my inner core

 on fire for the

Kingdom of God. 

How unworthy

I am in all my being to even

come to you,

bow to you,

and

prostrate myself before You

in all Your brilliant

light,

glory,

and

 majesty.

Who am I

O’ Lord God

 that you would even consider

saving me,

 using me,

and

imparting to me Your divine

nature and glory?

Who am I

 O’ Christ of my salvation

to be touched by

Your mighty creating hand

and

 drawing me to

Your bosom for You

 to commune with this

broken soul

who has come to have

no purpose

 on earth but to be in

Your Presence continually

and

listening to Your voice

and

praising Your most Holy Name?”

Who am I

O’ Lord Jesus 

to even speak your Holy Name

 and

 take it upon my lips

let alone to declare

 Your precious blood washing

 my pitiful soul from sin and iniquity?

Who am I

O’ Savior of my soul

to even call upon the King of Kings

and

approach You

in prayer and supplications

often stating my needs

without regard for Your needs?

Who am I

O’ Jehovah Jireh 

that You care for

and

love me

 and

take notice of my needs

and

supply my lack with

 provision that overflows?

Who am I

O’ Great Creator God 

of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob

to think

 I deserve anything

but the wrath

 of Your outstretched arm

 and

hand with only the cross

and

Your blood covering me to

make me acceptable to You?”

Who am I

O’ Great Shepherd of my soul, 

to think I am anything of value

to You

without Your impartation

of Life

and

Renewal every

hour of each day which brings

 cleansing, forgiveness, restoration,

and

revelation of You,

Your Word,

Your Ways,

 Your desires,

Your call,

Your assignments,

and

Your love?”

Who am I

O’ Jesus 

to be visited by You in my dreams

 flashing to me on a billboard three times,

“I come to consume all of your heart”

for it is my whole heart

You come to transform

from wickedness to

Your righteousness?

Who am I

O’ My Christ 

to have Your favor

 and

leading to take the Gospel

and

declare it to the

broken,

needy,

homeless,

hungry,

 and

destitute,

and

to the church itself.

 I long to

 see the fullness of Your

anointing,

 power,

and

the coming

of

Your kingdom.

Who am I

O’ Father, Son, and Holy Spirit

 that You find anything in these

bones and flesh

that You can take

and

use for Your

divine purposes?”

O’ God of my salvation,

 how I long for You to come

and

empty me

and

fill me with Yourself

 for without the

emptying and filling

I am nothing but an

empty tomb,

 a voice of no account,

an entity without direction,

a mind apart from you,

and

a spirit insensitive to the

Holiness,

Wisdom,

 and

 Righteousness of You.

Come Holy Spirit, 

shake me,

 break me more,

reduce me,

subtract me from me,

and

afflict me

that I might be continually

 remade

and

refashioned in the image

 and

loving kindness of Christ.

Let the cross have its effect

 for it is the cross for

 which my soul doth embrace.”

O’ Holy Spirit,

I respond to your speaking

to my heart at this moment

 in time

and

turn these things

over to you. 

The flow of these thoughts stopped here and weeping for Him and what He did on the cross for me began to flood my soul. I know what is recorded above is the Holy Spirit moving in me to pray these thoughts.  I do not have the intellect to write these things. To Him be the glory and praise. Thank You Holy Spirit!

 So be it in Your Name, Lord Jesus.

Rich Arnold

Servant of the Lord

311 Adelaide Ave SW

Hartville, Ohio 44632

330-704-9306

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